to you from me

hey you, just wondering whats been going through that noggin of yours. Ive been meaning to tell you yeah, i kinda miss you. well know kind of would have be a underestimate.

its not you its me. no not really. It's you. where did you go? though seriously. you were so good and now i have no idea who you are or where you're at. Do i need to come looking for you.. No, I did enough of that. you'll come back one day right?...

On a serious note, i'm leaving soon... sooner than you think. If i cant find you what is there for me to stick around for. how long am i going to be searching. it gets tiring. im busted.. body all worn out.. walking those miles to you. waiting for you to suddenly appear. it's as if you're becoming a stranger. I just hope i find my way home.

I cant fathom having you deleted from my memory. Or atleast trying to come to a conclusion that you dont exist.

slowly fading. you're fading slowly. surely.

goodnight.goodbye you.
goodmorning.hello stranger.
Sincerly, yours truly.

and i just wonder.

feeling like its my last breath .. taking it all in. trying to look at the picture. trying to back away. but im not moving. it gets hard everyday. spiritually in need of healing. some sort of. as well as soul cleansing.

Everything is everything.

you come across so many people every day of your life and do you ever wonder how you have affected them. Many of us will be like "I could careless what they think about me" it's not even about that. It's that impression or the last word you've said to them. I know with me sometimes someone says something to me pleased or not i'll have a memory of it. Even if it made not react to it. but most of the times its when i have a reaction it. :\ Like that first conversation I have with you will be a every lasting one. It's not like thats what im going to think of you throughout our whole relationship.
Sometimes i hate my left brain for remebering alot of things that i dont want to remember. Iknow the poeple in my life dislike it. But i cant help it.