One more try.

Unaware

Aware

All I could do is cry

-Etta James.

This song cuts me soo deep. x_x

today was a good day.

besides the fact that i've got the door shut it in my face. I guess its happened before and it happened again. history repeats itself right oh well. I'll get over it.

Moving along.....

I went to target to day to return my yellow dress and I will be going tomorrow to return that black blouse. muahahha. I cant make up mind about anything. after our little shopping date we went to the movies ..I wanted to see "My sister's Keeper" but the showing was later than I thought. My lappy B. deceived me. How dare she. We ended up seeing Taking the Pelham 1 2 3... that was really good. It was suspensful and I love me some Denzel Washington.


GOOODAY.:)

disbelief.

I wrote, wrote and wrote some more! and Its gone. WTF blogspot. I am not happy with your action right now. :(

you disappointed me!

pirates.

the conversation btw this guy and i.

GUY:so where are you from?

me. Somalia.east Africa.

guy. oh where the pirates are huh.


oh okay.that turned me off. like wow.

I don't blame him. nope not at all.I blame AMERICA. mothafuckers. go choke on something. CNN and every bitch that televised that shit.

We will rise. one day. SOON.

I came. I saw and..

I conquered. that was the last story.
I'll let you be the conqueror this time. save me save my heart. anything you wanna save you got it.
save me
save them.
save us.

keep us
refrain us
keep us.
refrain us.

STOP.
STOP.
STOP.
pleaseee.


and i will.


why do you think we are here?

your sole purpose in life is to ?

to be born again.

oh really.

I've heard many tall tales in my life. im pretty sure you have too.
you've been lied to,cheated anything it has happened.. We live in a fucked up world. Or are we just fucked up.

They say we're all good people we just make bad decisions. Most of us do. What about the ones that make good decisions do they get extra points. hm mm.

I believe in you ..you believe in me. Do I really?

Theres one topic i really dislike talking about but i have soo many questions.. let me drop em.

How do you believe in someone/something

every story/person sounds like a fairytale.

why aren't you still living ?

heaven & hell.

afterlife.

spiritually, I'm inSane. My faith is parched. I believe in GOD. the rest of it I dont too much care for it. If you believe in GOD..what religion do you follow? uhh, I honestly ... my parents are muslim. Im "muslim".. i go to the mosque every friday. pray and leave. & I feel indifferent. it does nothing for me. Atleast I dont notice it.

Can music be my religion? :~\

and why are their soo many F.......in religions. Like WHY?!! the separation is uneccesary.

when UNITY is needed. You'd think youd find it in worshipping GOD or something but nope.

There's separation in everything .... I WONDER WHY.

I thought race was enough but I guess not.

I'm done for the night because.....

Your silence makes the message loud and clear I get it.

i'll fly .

It what time now 12:41 listening to college dropout School Spirit skit 1..hmmmmm.
alot of thoughts running through my head. So i decided to write. Maybe i'll feel better. I just have too many questions. Sometimes I hate that. Sometimes i'm not satisfied with my answer ofcourse. Ugh.!

So what are my thoughts tonight..

its 12:44am.. i;m in the house on the computer. I would rather be outside doing something joyful. Not even clubbing. I wouldn't mind walking in the park or laying out watching the stars. Doing something stupid with my friends. or BEING @ THE BEACH.

it's 12:45 all that "glitters is not gold." you glitter but ive noticed your not gold. disappointments. disappointments. disappointments. why havent you satisfied my hunger. Your right, you cant. Idk why.

its 12:46 hmmmmm I'm thinkin about home[somalia] my auntie. I know shes not feeling well. missing her family... her brother. and I. i KNOW it. ..i honestly dont like talking to my family on the phone. it's hard. theres nothing i can do for them. its soo different. I really miss them& to the ones i dont know aahhh! one day I will get to.

12;49 fuck you. first and foremost for making me do this shit. la la la la la and I am..... they ask me .... and I tell em..... raise your glass.... to the sky.

it's 12;50AM. my cousin came to mind. umi says.... whenever i think about her often she calls me in the morning to tell me something negative. Hopefully tomorrow morning she calls me with posistive news. we'll see.

12:53 he popped in my head. no not him. h.i.m. Hmmm why. idk.

12:54AM goodnight.

"Culture of inSanity" opened my eyes.

Yesterday I read this article that opened my eyes. Somethings I already knew i just did not know in detail. then it made me thing about how my country is suffering because of the cultural imperialism. The main problem with Somali in my eyes is the whole tribal warfare. The problem with every country in Africa.If it wasn't for the imperialism It would've been a developed country than America. Why do you think the Europeans targeted Africa?!. They knew exactly what they were doing.They dont want us to UNITE. If everyone of us started realizing the truth we would big as one and out rule them. But most people are soo stuck their norms they dont want change. I understand in a way because people dont know how to react to change and some people dont take it well. We are so use to
When I was living in kenya and somalia, if you heard a family member or friend that was going to america. You would be so happy for them. Your thinking when is my turn. As I said it plenty of times that it's like heaven. I was a victim of that. When I found out I was going to get the chance to come to America. I was ecsatic, so were my family. Thats how they want you to think of course.But who said that this was heaven in kind of way. As my friend always tells me she says you cant talk bad about the states without talking about the good. Okay so whats so good about it that another country couldnt offer me. The only reason they might not be able to offer me what the united states can is becuase the unitied states cheated their way to "victory".Now being looked as the number one developed country.

So you decide to come to America for a better oppurtunity right. All foreignrs do. Our plan is to come here get a education and go back to try to help your country. atleast that's what I thought. People tend to forget their number one goal and the real reason why they came here.So when I came here I was like this is it. I was expecting more. If you really look at it theres more negatives in this country than anywhere else. There are more homeless people living here than in afirca. The bad thing is that there is homeless shelters. Do we have any homeless shelters in Africa? I dont think so. Atleast not as many as america has. As I was saying they want me to come here so they can brainwash me. They're getting there. It has been done to millions of foreigners. Change our ways to their ways and then we're going to think its the right way . when its really not.


Im curious on how HIV/AIDS is number one in Africa? How did it get there? oooh okay. I know. What else do you want to bring and blame it on Africa?