lets take a long walk at the park.-jill scott

a match made in heaven set the fires in hell ;]

its been a while.

well well we meet again.

School has been a drag. Gave me a mental break down. Where i ended shutting myself down from the world for a few days. I still feel weary. its just so stressful, having alot on your shoulders.
I sort of shut down some people in my life that i felt were in the way. in due time i'll be back but for now, My main focus is on school. waiting on this semester to be over--right now.

MOTIVATION- is like money, so hard to hold on to. Sometimes i just feel like saying F.ck it. its easier than fighting it. but I quitting is the last thing i want to do. I know I have goal that i cant just give up on. a childhood dream that I cant let die.

School has been the only thing in my life thats happening. no excitement no partying but I still try to smile.

to you from me

hey you, just wondering whats been going through that noggin of yours. Ive been meaning to tell you yeah, i kinda miss you. well know kind of would have be a underestimate.

its not you its me. no not really. It's you. where did you go? though seriously. you were so good and now i have no idea who you are or where you're at. Do i need to come looking for you.. No, I did enough of that. you'll come back one day right?...

On a serious note, i'm leaving soon... sooner than you think. If i cant find you what is there for me to stick around for. how long am i going to be searching. it gets tiring. im busted.. body all worn out.. walking those miles to you. waiting for you to suddenly appear. it's as if you're becoming a stranger. I just hope i find my way home.

I cant fathom having you deleted from my memory. Or atleast trying to come to a conclusion that you dont exist.

slowly fading. you're fading slowly. surely.

goodnight.goodbye you.
goodmorning.hello stranger.
Sincerly, yours truly.

and i just wonder.

feeling like its my last breath .. taking it all in. trying to look at the picture. trying to back away. but im not moving. it gets hard everyday. spiritually in need of healing. some sort of. as well as soul cleansing.

Everything is everything.

you come across so many people every day of your life and do you ever wonder how you have affected them. Many of us will be like "I could careless what they think about me" it's not even about that. It's that impression or the last word you've said to them. I know with me sometimes someone says something to me pleased or not i'll have a memory of it. Even if it made not react to it. but most of the times its when i have a reaction it. :\ Like that first conversation I have with you will be a every lasting one. It's not like thats what im going to think of you throughout our whole relationship.
Sometimes i hate my left brain for remebering alot of things that i dont want to remember. Iknow the poeple in my life dislike it. But i cant help it.

kept my feelings underground.

"Just Want You Around"

I just want you around
I just want you around
I just want you around
I just want you around

Thought that I had lost you
I can hardly make a sound
When I thought I couldn't hold you
Knew the world had let me down
Should have took the time to tell you
You keep my feet on the ground
I hope that you can hear me
Cause I know its not profound

I just want you around
I just need you around
I just want you around
I just need you around

When I thought I was without you
I got used to being down
It was my fault I used to doubt you
But that aint me next time around
Please believe me when I tell you
Cause all my words are bound
This is my cross now let me bare it
I was lost but now I'm found-found-found

I just want you around
I just need you around
I just want you around
I just need you around

Took this love for granted
Kept my feelings underground
Should have watered what I planted
Should have known what I have found
I'm not used to being lonely
I don't like the way it sounds
You're the only one I know-yeah
Who don't turn my upside-down

I just want you around
I just need you around
I just want you around
I just need you around
Yeah I want you around
I just need you around .......

How beautiful is fruit still in denial of its roots?

othing can be done against the truth
No matter how we remain in denial, yeah
Wasting time
Replacing time
With each empty excuse
But that'll only work a little while
Coping with despair
Knowing you're not there
Ashamed to just admit
I've been a fool
So I blame it on the Sun
Run away from everyone
Hoping to escape this ridicule
Trapped in misery
Wrapped so miserably
In this deception that im wearing like a skin

Dying to mantain
Oh I keep trying to explain
A heart that never loved me to begin
Oh I'm such a mess
I have no choice but to confess
That I've been desperately trying to belong
Lying to myself
And everybody else
Refusing to admit my right was wrong
How beautiful is fruit still in denial of its roots?
My guilty heart behaved so foolishly
This treason from within
That reasons with my sin
Won't be happy til it sees the death of me
Selfishly addicted
To a life that I depicted
Conflicted cuz it's not reality
Oh what's left of me
I beg you desperately
Cause me to agree with what I know is best for me
Please save me from myself
I need You to save me from myself
Please save me from myself so I can heal

The choices that Ive made
Oh have been nothing but mistakes
What a wasted use of space
Should I die before I wake?
In all of my religion
I've fortified this prison
Obligated to obey
The demands of bad decisions

Please save me from myself
I need You to save me from myself
Please save me from myself so I can heal.

Caught up in emotion.

"Adam Lives In Theory"

Adam lives in theory
Trying to turn stone into bread
Masquerading like he got it figured out
Cut off from the sunshine, only smart in his own head
Leaving his descendants to hope and doubt
Left to his devices, those worth the sacrifices
Praying to the alter of himself
Making pilgrimages, thinking he's religious
Like he's got all the light, and no one else

He takes the unsuspected
Cause he knows they're not connected
And he shows them how to be just as he is
Virtually real, and commercially appealed
To the lust of all the people where he lives

Eve was so naive, blinded by the pride and greed
Wanting to be intellectual
Drifting from the way she got turned down one day
And now she thinks that she's bisexual

Caught up in emotion
Burning up in her devotion
To the king of exploitation in the field
She handed him her virtue
Cause he told her "I won't hurt you"
So she lay with him to see how good it feels

Now can you tell me, what, what we gonna do now
Where we gonna go now, what we gonna say now
Now can you tell me, what, what we gonna do now
Where we gonna go now, what we gonna say now

Now after the sensation, and the empty fornication
She brought affection home into her bed, quickly multiplying
Now the 3 of them are dying by the poison she perceived to be good head
Now Eve and her husband are perverted in their judgment
Cause everything appears to be the same
They entertain suggestion,
Next time just use protection

Desiring to cover up their shame
But much to their demise, poor decision closed their eyes
To the very antidote to their dilemma
Burning in their lust,
Both of them adulterous
Destroying the original agenda
Praying to the sky, in order to maintain a lie
They exhausted every possible conclusion,
They can't even entertain the solution,
In a brain filled with vain information and pollution

Hiding from the truth,
He provided an excuse to explain away his desperate situation
When confronted, blamed his wife
Giving birth to carnal life
Refusing to acknowledge what he done

Now if we can agree with who created us to be
Who says we're guilty everyone before his eyes
Making no exceptions, since the day of our conception
Predisposed to hating truth, and loving lies

Then can you tell me, what, what we gonna do now
Where we gonna go now, what we gonna say now
Then can you tell me, what, what we gonna do now
Where we gonna go now, what we gonna say now

Stop walking in pride, let the thief be crucified
Un-learn everything you know, and let him teach you
Line upon line, precept upon precept, say goodbye,
To this decaying social system
He wants to know, how far we're willing to go
If we love him like we say we do,
He will try us

Just don't regress,
Or slip into hopelessness
Once he's satisfied his love,
He won't deny us,

And then he'll tell us,
What, what we gonna do now
Where we gonna go now, what we gonna say now

you just lost one.

It's funny how money change a situationMiscommunication leads to complicationMy emancipation don't fit your equationI was on the humble, you - on every station
Some wan' play young Lauryn like she dumb
But remember not a game new under the sun
Everything you did has already been done
I know all the tricks from Bricks to Kingston
My ting done made your kingdom wan' run
Now understand L. Boogie's non-violent
But if a thing test me, run for mi gun
Can't take a threat to mi newborn son
L's been this way since creation
A groupie call, you fall from temptation
Now you wanna ball over seperation
Tarnish my image in you conversation
Who you gon' scrimmage like you the champion
You might win some but you just lost one

You might win some but you just lost one
You might win some but you just lost one
You might win some but you just lost one
You might win some but you just lost one

Now, now how come your talk turn cold
Gained the whole world for the price of your soul
Tryin' to grab hold of what you can't control
Now you're all floss, what a sight to behold
Wisdoms is better than silver and gold
I was hopeless nowI'm on Hope road
Every man want to act like he's exemptWhen him need to get down o his knees and repent
Can't slick talk on the day of judgement
Your movement's similar to a serpent
Tried to play straight, how your whole style bent?
Consequence is no coincidence
Hypocrites always want to play innocent
Always want to take it to full out extent
Always want to make it seem like good intent
Never want to face it when it's time for punishment
I know that you don't wanna hear my opinion
But there come many paths and you must choose one
And if you don't change then the rain soon come
See you might win some but you just lost one

You might win some but you just lost one
You might win some but you just lost one
You might win some but you just lost one
You might win some but you just lost one

You might win some but you really lost one
You just lost one, it's so silly how come
When it's all done did you really gain from
What you done done, it's so silly how come
You just lost one

Now don't you understand man universal law
What you throw out comes back to you, star
Never underestimate those who you scar
'Cause karme, karma, karma comes back to you hard
You can't hold God's people back that long
The chain of Shatan wasn't made that strong
Trying to pretend like your word is our bond
But until you do right, all you do will go wrong
Now some might mistake this for just a simple song
And some don't know what they have 'til it's gone
Now even when you're gone you can still be rebornAnd, from the night can arrive the sweet dawn
Now, some might listen and some might shun
And some may thinkg that they've reached perfection
If you look closely you'll see what you've become
'Cause you might win some but you just lost one

You might win some but you just lost one
You might win some but you just lost one
You might win some but you just lost one
You might win some but you just lost one

You might win some but you really lost one
You just lost one, it's so silly how come
When it's all done did you really gain from
What you done done, it's so silly how come
You just lost one

change is good...

sometimes?..all the time?!

depending on you and what's your perspective on it?!

Sometimes when it happens ..we don't realize how it affects the people surrounding us. but what do we care as long as we are growing. that sounds pretty selfish but we as humans are selfish.

I personally think don't think I've changed. I know I've for a certain because people change as they grow.

Change Varies...though. certain people/surrounding changes.

change is for certain. in every aspect.

whether you like it or not. :\

stay with you.-JL.

I don't know what it is . but it just doesn't ever seem to work with us. As bad as i want it to work or at least be friend the guy it just doesn't happen. As if we are particles that don't react too well with each other. like vinegar and water. maymuna and tomatoes. .[lol] sometimes i feel like if i can have anything at all it would be him and I HAPPY together..no fights no arguments. just our happy go lucky times.


If we can only let go of the pettiness and when communicating not get get angry i KNOW it would work. If both of us were mature enough to put our differences aside we could actually grow together.
since that isnt the case. we have to move on with our lives. sooner than later i'll let go.

They say "if you truly love something you should set it free and if it comes back to you you know its truly yours"

wishful thinking.

She lives in my lap.

Fotos!!

I should've cheated like Keyshia Cole

How can you accuse me of something you don't have proof of. You never seen me commit such a crime. I promised myself that I would never ever cheat on someone and i haven't. so i don't understand how someone can accuse me of it. just had too much love for you to disrespect you and there you go disrespecting me. hate me all you want if it makes you feel better. I hope at the end of the day you'll know you're lingering on to a lie that you choose to believe yourself.

I jsut dont understand how you said eminiem looked stupid for calling mariah all those things when you doing the same things. Dont go pointing fingers when you're guilty of the same thing.


but in all honestly if i cheated on you think i would still be around. I would be around whoever im so called cheating on with. You think id go extra lengths for you. I guess . it just hurts. and if that was your motive ding ding you won. you've hurt me once again.

I guess everything happens for a reason. and there is a reason for tonight.I dont know the reason but i guess i'll have to move on with my life.

I also believe in KARMA everything you have done to me KARMA will take care of it for me thats why I never tried to take revenge.I;ve thought about it but never in my life HAVE DONE IT.

positive sees negative DIE.

Its tuesday well its wednesday morning ;).
I feel good. feelin that feeling.
you know the one you just know everything it going to work out.

crazy good.

the tempation of the flesh.

I haven't seen you in x amount of days.
yes I missed you.
I know when we reunite.
God knows what will happen.
... we kinda do .
physical attraction like magnets.
..lacking self control.
sometimes its hard to resist.



Wait...
Honestly is it that hard..
it's all in the mind.

remember the times.

I remember ...

... when Mrs.Norris would always tell us to shush to the point she changed our seats.

...the first time we seen each other since Kenya and we stayed up till 5AM catching up.

.... when you gave me all that candy from Halloween.

.... when you told me I'd pass my DMV test.

... we would spend hours on the phone and id try to beat box and you would rap- good times-

... when you bought me a doughnut and y0u tried to give me yours and i was like i dont want it.

... we drove around finding a place to get my piercing but they were all closed .

... last but not least ... remember the good times we had @ Hastings High . The skating to the dancing ;) 143, forever.

memories I hold on to. :]

There is bad to every good & good to every bad[maybe] but I rather just reminisce about the G.O.O.D. The bad isn't going to do any justice. but the good reveals to me how much I appreciate them.


xoxom.un.axoxo

maymuna...

yes..

I hate

when

people



just be like




maymuna


maymuna this


maymuna that.

can you please refrain from saying my name.


Its not neccesary.
it makes me feel uncomfortable. Like im in trouble. jeez.

-------On a LiGHTERNOTE.


lets talk about my night being BAD.lol its not even bad.

Sun day was expectacular. I went to red lobster & movies afterwards came home at 12:46am . Wow MUNZY..where did you get those balls from honeypie?..I dont know they came out of no where. i didnt know i had it in me.Came home no problemo with the padre. Im pretty sure he isnt too pleased. but he needs to let go a little.

late at night.

I dont know why i do this but i do it well. Late at night thoughts come to mind. and i start going through my old email and inbox just to read what was going through my head and others. what was my conversation like and how was I living. some emails make me look at myself differently and some literally bring tears to my eyes. tears of joy. this certain email i read i recieved tue.. jan 01..2008. i was out of state.. First time i read it i cried. last time i read it icried. Its just soo beautiful never felt that way or someone feel that way about someone.

143, LIFE.

Things are looking up past couple months has been very hard for maymuna. Dont ask why, or how. just know ive been fighting demons inside and out. my dreams did not come reality. but i have hope for the future. It's going to happen. I promise world. Dont underestimate. Success is measured by the amount of struggles you overcome. I will overcome my struggles & succeed. a positive mindset is always needed in every situation!
Sometimes i can be negative. I dont even know im being negative until others bring to my attention. lately I've kept a smile on my face and tried my best to stay positive. gloomy days just bring rainy days...atleast for me. Speaking for m.un.a===>Sometimes rainy days are really good they help me cleanse my soul. After i let out a puddle i feel great. I smile after every puddle. back to my beautifully sketched blue print of life. Broken old habits...that helped me Digress. I let them out the window. good for me. Loooking forward to the future it can only gets better. it gets bad before it gets good. really... Im looking forward to this rollercoaster I'd like to call LIFe,143:)

keep youR spirit al.i.ve

fridays

I had a great one last friday. I had foood,ice cream, window shopping & fruitISTAs and good conversation. What happened today?...too bad my companion is in New York for a week. :(

lasting impression

in order thats all i listened to this summer. On Evolver i loved every single song. hands down i loved it. Anticipation put me to sleep and Loso's way kept me moving during the day!!

almost doesnt count.

Dear summer, I know you gon' miss me
For we been together like summmer skool and family visits
Gimme couple months , and we'll be back.

Oh my goodness the summer is almost over. I cant believe this summer went by so fast. My goodness. I didn't get to go to Somalia like I wanted. Only if the conditions were better. Maybe next time. I went to summer school for one session. that flew by as well.My cousin came to visit that was fun. and now its Aug. so long summer.


Listen here summer baby, I just believe it's the right thing to do
Its a brand new season, Fall
we had fun together
so long summmer! :)

Back to BLack.

One more try.

Unaware

Aware

All I could do is cry

-Etta James.

This song cuts me soo deep. x_x

today was a good day.

besides the fact that i've got the door shut it in my face. I guess its happened before and it happened again. history repeats itself right oh well. I'll get over it.

Moving along.....

I went to target to day to return my yellow dress and I will be going tomorrow to return that black blouse. muahahha. I cant make up mind about anything. after our little shopping date we went to the movies ..I wanted to see "My sister's Keeper" but the showing was later than I thought. My lappy B. deceived me. How dare she. We ended up seeing Taking the Pelham 1 2 3... that was really good. It was suspensful and I love me some Denzel Washington.


GOOODAY.:)

disbelief.

I wrote, wrote and wrote some more! and Its gone. WTF blogspot. I am not happy with your action right now. :(

you disappointed me!

pirates.

the conversation btw this guy and i.

GUY:so where are you from?

me. Somalia.east Africa.

guy. oh where the pirates are huh.


oh okay.that turned me off. like wow.

I don't blame him. nope not at all.I blame AMERICA. mothafuckers. go choke on something. CNN and every bitch that televised that shit.

We will rise. one day. SOON.

I came. I saw and..

I conquered. that was the last story.
I'll let you be the conqueror this time. save me save my heart. anything you wanna save you got it.
save me
save them.
save us.

keep us
refrain us
keep us.
refrain us.

STOP.
STOP.
STOP.
pleaseee.


and i will.


why do you think we are here?

your sole purpose in life is to ?

to be born again.

oh really.

I've heard many tall tales in my life. im pretty sure you have too.
you've been lied to,cheated anything it has happened.. We live in a fucked up world. Or are we just fucked up.

They say we're all good people we just make bad decisions. Most of us do. What about the ones that make good decisions do they get extra points. hm mm.

I believe in you ..you believe in me. Do I really?

Theres one topic i really dislike talking about but i have soo many questions.. let me drop em.

How do you believe in someone/something

every story/person sounds like a fairytale.

why aren't you still living ?

heaven & hell.

afterlife.

spiritually, I'm inSane. My faith is parched. I believe in GOD. the rest of it I dont too much care for it. If you believe in GOD..what religion do you follow? uhh, I honestly ... my parents are muslim. Im "muslim".. i go to the mosque every friday. pray and leave. & I feel indifferent. it does nothing for me. Atleast I dont notice it.

Can music be my religion? :~\

and why are their soo many F.......in religions. Like WHY?!! the separation is uneccesary.

when UNITY is needed. You'd think youd find it in worshipping GOD or something but nope.

There's separation in everything .... I WONDER WHY.

I thought race was enough but I guess not.

I'm done for the night because.....

Your silence makes the message loud and clear I get it.

i'll fly .

It what time now 12:41 listening to college dropout School Spirit skit 1..hmmmmm.
alot of thoughts running through my head. So i decided to write. Maybe i'll feel better. I just have too many questions. Sometimes I hate that. Sometimes i'm not satisfied with my answer ofcourse. Ugh.!

So what are my thoughts tonight..

its 12:44am.. i;m in the house on the computer. I would rather be outside doing something joyful. Not even clubbing. I wouldn't mind walking in the park or laying out watching the stars. Doing something stupid with my friends. or BEING @ THE BEACH.

it's 12:45 all that "glitters is not gold." you glitter but ive noticed your not gold. disappointments. disappointments. disappointments. why havent you satisfied my hunger. Your right, you cant. Idk why.

its 12:46 hmmmmm I'm thinkin about home[somalia] my auntie. I know shes not feeling well. missing her family... her brother. and I. i KNOW it. ..i honestly dont like talking to my family on the phone. it's hard. theres nothing i can do for them. its soo different. I really miss them& to the ones i dont know aahhh! one day I will get to.

12;49 fuck you. first and foremost for making me do this shit. la la la la la and I am..... they ask me .... and I tell em..... raise your glass.... to the sky.

it's 12;50AM. my cousin came to mind. umi says.... whenever i think about her often she calls me in the morning to tell me something negative. Hopefully tomorrow morning she calls me with posistive news. we'll see.

12:53 he popped in my head. no not him. h.i.m. Hmmm why. idk.

12:54AM goodnight.

"Culture of inSanity" opened my eyes.

Yesterday I read this article that opened my eyes. Somethings I already knew i just did not know in detail. then it made me thing about how my country is suffering because of the cultural imperialism. The main problem with Somali in my eyes is the whole tribal warfare. The problem with every country in Africa.If it wasn't for the imperialism It would've been a developed country than America. Why do you think the Europeans targeted Africa?!. They knew exactly what they were doing.They dont want us to UNITE. If everyone of us started realizing the truth we would big as one and out rule them. But most people are soo stuck their norms they dont want change. I understand in a way because people dont know how to react to change and some people dont take it well. We are so use to
When I was living in kenya and somalia, if you heard a family member or friend that was going to america. You would be so happy for them. Your thinking when is my turn. As I said it plenty of times that it's like heaven. I was a victim of that. When I found out I was going to get the chance to come to America. I was ecsatic, so were my family. Thats how they want you to think of course.But who said that this was heaven in kind of way. As my friend always tells me she says you cant talk bad about the states without talking about the good. Okay so whats so good about it that another country couldnt offer me. The only reason they might not be able to offer me what the united states can is becuase the unitied states cheated their way to "victory".Now being looked as the number one developed country.

So you decide to come to America for a better oppurtunity right. All foreignrs do. Our plan is to come here get a education and go back to try to help your country. atleast that's what I thought. People tend to forget their number one goal and the real reason why they came here.So when I came here I was like this is it. I was expecting more. If you really look at it theres more negatives in this country than anywhere else. There are more homeless people living here than in afirca. The bad thing is that there is homeless shelters. Do we have any homeless shelters in Africa? I dont think so. Atleast not as many as america has. As I was saying they want me to come here so they can brainwash me. They're getting there. It has been done to millions of foreigners. Change our ways to their ways and then we're going to think its the right way . when its really not.


Im curious on how HIV/AIDS is number one in Africa? How did it get there? oooh okay. I know. What else do you want to bring and blame it on Africa?

Passenger seat or drivers seat

What's You Passion??

Idk..There is nothing really I'm passionate about.


WRONG ANSWER!!!!!

If you dont have no passion in life are you just living?? ... So there is nothing your really passionate about?..

I am passionate about helping myself and those in need.

I remember being in second grade and they had this program where you get to learn about medicine field.Then I knew what I wanted to do with my life. I told myself I was going to be a doctor and go back to Somalia and build a hospital there.


10 years later.......
I am in college and I don't know what to do with myself. I don't even know if I want be in the medical field anymore. I still want to help my people.


Sometimes I feel like a failure because i feel like im not going where i am suppose to go. I'm trying my hardest to satisfy them as well.
oh welp. my future is laid out already just have to make the right decisions.

Dr.Kill Joy

Michael Jackson

Farrah Fawcett

Ed McMahon

Today Farrah Fawcett and Michael Jackson passed way. Honestly, I feel like everyone has a time to go and people are going crazy like this was not going to happen. Are you serious. He's human death is promised. People should pay their dues and move on. I really dont know how to handle death. I just know it's natural. Maybe because these people really weren't in my life for be to affected by it. I know thats the selfish me talking but it's the truth.

Yes, his music was great. I can honestly i have favorites. like "Do you remember the time","thriller","Billie Jean","the way you make me feel","Butterfly","black or white" ,"Smooth Criminal, "liberain Girl", & "Dirty Diana" He's music will still be here. So you can pop it in jam it any day.

"We all die. The goal isn't to live forever, the goal is to create something that will.”

He left us with great music and we should be happy about that. It's funny to me because people talked bad about it calling him all types of names and now "mourning" over his death.I guess that's just people for you. Okay, Maybe I'm just different I feel like there's other things to worry about in life right now. The man is gone. What can we do about it?! honestly NOTHING!. I wonder if people are like this when a close family member/ is gone.

my friends are disappointed in my behavior but i just really handle death differently. I'm just speaking how I feel. I never really cried or sad about any celebrity who died. I just know that everyone has their time to go. Today was his. Tomorrow is someone else. & My day is soon to come as well.

With that being said I hope they rest in peace. Farraw Fawcett, Michael Jackson & Ed McMahon.

"Death? Why this fuss about death. Use your imagination, try to visualize a world without death! ... Death is the essential condition of life, not an evil."


peacexoxomoon



"

They Let go When they have found someone new.

Each time they come around

waiting to get another chance

waiting to change

come back with the same excuses

"Oh i've changed"

"Im still in love with you"

Little did you know

they've come back because they're lonely.

maybe miss the physical interaction y'all had with one another.

they put on a show.

Dramatic one to make you think "wow this guy really has changed and wants me back"

I'm sorry thats not the case.

deep down you know what's up. You just cant let go.

This person is your weakness.

So you keep them around.

You know your going to get hurt and it wont work.

but you you keep brushing the truth off your shoulders.

Because you deeply love this person

love wont keep him/her around.

Now a days you dont know what will.

It's hard out there for a single girl/guy still in love with her/his ex.

It is i'm not going to lie.

but what can you do but let go.

If you know his not the guy for you.

If He/she doesnt reflect you.

Why keep him/her around.

So whose really losing right now. Him/her or YOU.

YOU- at this point.

Not losing him/her.

your losing yourself.

over tainted love.

It's not worth it. They say its best the 2nd time around anyway :).

let it go.

I know ive said this plenty of times but let that man/woman go.

He/she doesnt deserve me.Everything happens for a reason.

Because when he's/she's found someone new he'll/she'll forget all about you.

Let it go. easier said than done.

But WE can try.

let go.

Sometimes you work soo hard at something and you dont expect the outcome to be negative at all. For years people try to fix a broken glass. No you cant tape it back together. As much as you think you can. I'm sorry you cant. It's one of those things you just have to let go and move on. Deep down you know it's not going to work. But you try to brush off that little person inside your head telling you "stop forget about it...you know its not going to work ..you tried already". It's like you expect something to magically happen and Poof everything is fixed together. Let it go.You cant fix a broken glass like you cant mend a broken heart. The only way to fix both is to get a new one. It's replacable. Us as humans we allow ourselves to think we can fix something thats why we try ,try,try, and try AGAIN. It's like how many times do you have to try for it to click that IT JUST ISNT GOING TO WORK. it broke because it was time. It didnt work because it wasnt meant to be. Things and People change so we can learn to let go. We have to get over it and push forward.
peacexoxomoon

floatwithme.

After bombing on my test today...I went to go swim with my buddybud to release stress and I needed to get my body soaked.It was pretty fun. at first I was hesistant on going but I know deep down in my heart I wanted to swim for me not for them.[girlcantevenswimthatgood]overall it was a good day. After i came home from my little swim. I was extremely tired and sleepy.I wouldnt let myself go to sleep though. I wanted to have a great night sleep. haha.. a good sleep gets no better!


peacexoxomoon.

She wants to move-n.e.r.d

I've been living in the states for Eleven bittersweet years. Some have been great some have been not so great. We all have our good and bad days. It's part of life. Sometimes I wonder if people are ever satisfied.When it comes to alot of things I am never satisfied. for Example living H.ere.I think ive had enough of this big Ol state. Out of the states I'd like to go VISIT New York, California. Washington...DC..atlanta. Hawaii. If i could I would VISIT all 50 states. I would not choose to live permanetly though. I wanna go somewhere far far away.Visit some countries till Im compeltey taken away and thats where I'll reside till I turn to ashes. I have always wanted to travel the world. Ever since I was a young girl.I was like I'm going to Italy and travel all over Europe.[shutupMuna].. I still want to go to Italy. I also want to visit Egypt, Morroco,UAE,indonesia,malaysia, saudi arabia,china japen, australia and many more. I will one day inshallah.

I have a thing for moving. =].. When we use to live in Nairobi. We moved soo many times.& I love it. I didnt mind at all. We moved here and there. It was my auntie. Shes loves moving around. I guess that's where I get it from. But living in the states with my daddy is something else. He doesnt like to move around. He is like that with everything. Ugh. Basically close minded about everything as well is no bueno.

Before I pass, I want to already visited every country if not every MOsT of the intriguing ones.

peace.

Many shades of black.

Let me update on my day. I went to school today on a friday muna ...Yes! I cant believe it. But i was in class for about forty-five minutes. BIGWHOOP. but was I ZONED OUT!! Linda Webb done gave us a assignment..I was not pleased at all.But I guess it is what it is. I'm enjoying summer school with jas. thats about it. Who knew the moon & the sunshine were toooo goofy.
I feel like im gettin a little fat fat. Uno dia.

I have a headache once again.Fuck ! this does not feel good at all. I hope its nothing serious.


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like im in crazy competiton with my past. It irks me. UGH!!!

&Forever doesnt exist.

So here it goes.

it was just yesterday when we grasped one another.
you know how i get when ever
our fingers interlock one another.
Our bodies touch one another.
complete.
You made me feel like
I never felt.
Dont get me started on your kisses.
I just never want to let it go.
saying goodbye is so hard.
and when we say goodnite
I wana kiss you and never let you go.
Then i start to count down the days,hours,minutes,seconds
It will take for us to meet in harmony again.
See our love is out of this world.
We love one another with more than love itself.

See all that I dont show.
B/c my pride is in the way.
They say dont let your pride be the one to break you.
It did so we tumbled.
hard.
Got me going crazy.
Trying to make it work
wasnt working at all.
It was a rainy day every night.
I cried my heart out.





It's like our hard work didnt pay off this time.
If I cant have you.
the way I want you I dont want you at all.
Things will never be the same.
Everything happens for a reason right?
... we happened.


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&This will be my blessing.

Day dreamer -adele

Daydreamer, sittin' on the seat
Soaking up the sun he is a
Real lover, makin' up the past and feeling up his girl like he's never felt her figure before
Her joy (..?)
Looks good when he when he walks, he is the subject of their talk
He would be hard to chase, but good to catch and he could change the world with his hands behind his back, Oh…

You can find him sittin' on your doorstep
Waiting for the surprise
It will feel like he's been there for hours
And you can tell that he'll be there for life

Daydreamer, with eyes that make you melt
He lends his coat for shelter because he's there for you when he shouldn't be
But he stays all the same, waits for you and then sees you through
There's no way I could describe him
All I say is, just what I'm hoping for

But I will find him sittin' on my doorstep
Waiting for the surprise
It will feel like he's been there for hours
And I can tell he'll be there for life
And I can tell he'll be there for life