Passenger seat or drivers seat

What's You Passion??

Idk..There is nothing really I'm passionate about.


WRONG ANSWER!!!!!

If you dont have no passion in life are you just living?? ... So there is nothing your really passionate about?..

I am passionate about helping myself and those in need.

I remember being in second grade and they had this program where you get to learn about medicine field.Then I knew what I wanted to do with my life. I told myself I was going to be a doctor and go back to Somalia and build a hospital there.


10 years later.......
I am in college and I don't know what to do with myself. I don't even know if I want be in the medical field anymore. I still want to help my people.


Sometimes I feel like a failure because i feel like im not going where i am suppose to go. I'm trying my hardest to satisfy them as well.
oh welp. my future is laid out already just have to make the right decisions.

Dr.Kill Joy

Michael Jackson

Farrah Fawcett

Ed McMahon

Today Farrah Fawcett and Michael Jackson passed way. Honestly, I feel like everyone has a time to go and people are going crazy like this was not going to happen. Are you serious. He's human death is promised. People should pay their dues and move on. I really dont know how to handle death. I just know it's natural. Maybe because these people really weren't in my life for be to affected by it. I know thats the selfish me talking but it's the truth.

Yes, his music was great. I can honestly i have favorites. like "Do you remember the time","thriller","Billie Jean","the way you make me feel","Butterfly","black or white" ,"Smooth Criminal, "liberain Girl", & "Dirty Diana" He's music will still be here. So you can pop it in jam it any day.

"We all die. The goal isn't to live forever, the goal is to create something that will.”

He left us with great music and we should be happy about that. It's funny to me because people talked bad about it calling him all types of names and now "mourning" over his death.I guess that's just people for you. Okay, Maybe I'm just different I feel like there's other things to worry about in life right now. The man is gone. What can we do about it?! honestly NOTHING!. I wonder if people are like this when a close family member/ is gone.

my friends are disappointed in my behavior but i just really handle death differently. I'm just speaking how I feel. I never really cried or sad about any celebrity who died. I just know that everyone has their time to go. Today was his. Tomorrow is someone else. & My day is soon to come as well.

With that being said I hope they rest in peace. Farraw Fawcett, Michael Jackson & Ed McMahon.

"Death? Why this fuss about death. Use your imagination, try to visualize a world without death! ... Death is the essential condition of life, not an evil."


peacexoxomoon



"

They Let go When they have found someone new.

Each time they come around

waiting to get another chance

waiting to change

come back with the same excuses

"Oh i've changed"

"Im still in love with you"

Little did you know

they've come back because they're lonely.

maybe miss the physical interaction y'all had with one another.

they put on a show.

Dramatic one to make you think "wow this guy really has changed and wants me back"

I'm sorry thats not the case.

deep down you know what's up. You just cant let go.

This person is your weakness.

So you keep them around.

You know your going to get hurt and it wont work.

but you you keep brushing the truth off your shoulders.

Because you deeply love this person

love wont keep him/her around.

Now a days you dont know what will.

It's hard out there for a single girl/guy still in love with her/his ex.

It is i'm not going to lie.

but what can you do but let go.

If you know his not the guy for you.

If He/she doesnt reflect you.

Why keep him/her around.

So whose really losing right now. Him/her or YOU.

YOU- at this point.

Not losing him/her.

your losing yourself.

over tainted love.

It's not worth it. They say its best the 2nd time around anyway :).

let it go.

I know ive said this plenty of times but let that man/woman go.

He/she doesnt deserve me.Everything happens for a reason.

Because when he's/she's found someone new he'll/she'll forget all about you.

Let it go. easier said than done.

But WE can try.

let go.

Sometimes you work soo hard at something and you dont expect the outcome to be negative at all. For years people try to fix a broken glass. No you cant tape it back together. As much as you think you can. I'm sorry you cant. It's one of those things you just have to let go and move on. Deep down you know it's not going to work. But you try to brush off that little person inside your head telling you "stop forget about it...you know its not going to work ..you tried already". It's like you expect something to magically happen and Poof everything is fixed together. Let it go.You cant fix a broken glass like you cant mend a broken heart. The only way to fix both is to get a new one. It's replacable. Us as humans we allow ourselves to think we can fix something thats why we try ,try,try, and try AGAIN. It's like how many times do you have to try for it to click that IT JUST ISNT GOING TO WORK. it broke because it was time. It didnt work because it wasnt meant to be. Things and People change so we can learn to let go. We have to get over it and push forward.
peacexoxomoon

floatwithme.

After bombing on my test today...I went to go swim with my buddybud to release stress and I needed to get my body soaked.It was pretty fun. at first I was hesistant on going but I know deep down in my heart I wanted to swim for me not for them.[girlcantevenswimthatgood]overall it was a good day. After i came home from my little swim. I was extremely tired and sleepy.I wouldnt let myself go to sleep though. I wanted to have a great night sleep. haha.. a good sleep gets no better!


peacexoxomoon.

She wants to move-n.e.r.d

I've been living in the states for Eleven bittersweet years. Some have been great some have been not so great. We all have our good and bad days. It's part of life. Sometimes I wonder if people are ever satisfied.When it comes to alot of things I am never satisfied. for Example living H.ere.I think ive had enough of this big Ol state. Out of the states I'd like to go VISIT New York, California. Washington...DC..atlanta. Hawaii. If i could I would VISIT all 50 states. I would not choose to live permanetly though. I wanna go somewhere far far away.Visit some countries till Im compeltey taken away and thats where I'll reside till I turn to ashes. I have always wanted to travel the world. Ever since I was a young girl.I was like I'm going to Italy and travel all over Europe.[shutupMuna].. I still want to go to Italy. I also want to visit Egypt, Morroco,UAE,indonesia,malaysia, saudi arabia,china japen, australia and many more. I will one day inshallah.

I have a thing for moving. =].. When we use to live in Nairobi. We moved soo many times.& I love it. I didnt mind at all. We moved here and there. It was my auntie. Shes loves moving around. I guess that's where I get it from. But living in the states with my daddy is something else. He doesnt like to move around. He is like that with everything. Ugh. Basically close minded about everything as well is no bueno.

Before I pass, I want to already visited every country if not every MOsT of the intriguing ones.

peace.

Many shades of black.

Let me update on my day. I went to school today on a friday muna ...Yes! I cant believe it. But i was in class for about forty-five minutes. BIGWHOOP. but was I ZONED OUT!! Linda Webb done gave us a assignment..I was not pleased at all.But I guess it is what it is. I'm enjoying summer school with jas. thats about it. Who knew the moon & the sunshine were toooo goofy.
I feel like im gettin a little fat fat. Uno dia.

I have a headache once again.Fuck ! this does not feel good at all. I hope its nothing serious.


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like im in crazy competiton with my past. It irks me. UGH!!!

&Forever doesnt exist.

So here it goes.

it was just yesterday when we grasped one another.
you know how i get when ever
our fingers interlock one another.
Our bodies touch one another.
complete.
You made me feel like
I never felt.
Dont get me started on your kisses.
I just never want to let it go.
saying goodbye is so hard.
and when we say goodnite
I wana kiss you and never let you go.
Then i start to count down the days,hours,minutes,seconds
It will take for us to meet in harmony again.
See our love is out of this world.
We love one another with more than love itself.

See all that I dont show.
B/c my pride is in the way.
They say dont let your pride be the one to break you.
It did so we tumbled.
hard.
Got me going crazy.
Trying to make it work
wasnt working at all.
It was a rainy day every night.
I cried my heart out.





It's like our hard work didnt pay off this time.
If I cant have you.
the way I want you I dont want you at all.
Things will never be the same.
Everything happens for a reason right?
... we happened.


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&This will be my blessing.

Day dreamer -adele

Daydreamer, sittin' on the seat
Soaking up the sun he is a
Real lover, makin' up the past and feeling up his girl like he's never felt her figure before
Her joy (..?)
Looks good when he when he walks, he is the subject of their talk
He would be hard to chase, but good to catch and he could change the world with his hands behind his back, Oh…

You can find him sittin' on your doorstep
Waiting for the surprise
It will feel like he's been there for hours
And you can tell that he'll be there for life

Daydreamer, with eyes that make you melt
He lends his coat for shelter because he's there for you when he shouldn't be
But he stays all the same, waits for you and then sees you through
There's no way I could describe him
All I say is, just what I'm hoping for

But I will find him sittin' on my doorstep
Waiting for the surprise
It will feel like he's been there for hours
And I can tell he'll be there for life
And I can tell he'll be there for life

Wow If this isnt true.

My Same-adele

You said I'm stubborn
And I never give in
I think you're stubborn
'Cept you're always softening
You say I'm selfish
I agree with you on that
I think you're giving out
In way too much in fact
I say we've only known
Each other one year

You say I've known
You longer my dear
You like to be so close
I like to be alone
I like to sit on chairs
And you prefer the floor
Walking with each other
Think we'll never
Match at all
But we do

I thought I knew myself
Somehow you know me more
I've never known this
Never before
You're the first
To make out
Whenever we are two
I don't know who I'd be
If I didn't know you
You're so provocative
I'm so conservative
You're so adventurous
I'm so very cautious
Combining
You think
We would and we do
But we do


Favouritism
Ain't my thing
But in this situation
I'll be glad
To make an exception

My apologies.

First Love-

So little to say
But so much time
Despite my empty mouth
The words are in my mind
Please wear the face
The one where you smile
Because you
Lighten up my heart
When I start to cry

Forgive me first love
But I'm tired
I need to get away
To feel again
Try to understand why
Don't get so close
To change my mind
Please wipe that look
Out of your eyes
It's bribing me
To doubt myself
Simply, it's tiring

This love has dried up
And stayed behind
And if I stay
I'll be alive
Then choke on words
I'd always hide
Excuse me first love
But we're through
I need to taste the kiss
From someone knew

Forgive me first love
But I'm too tired
I'm bored to say
The least and I
I lack desire
Forgive me first love
Forgive me
Forgive me first love

Best for last.

adele.

Wait, do you see my heart on my sleeve?
It's been there for days on end and
It's been waiting for you to open up
Just you baby, come on now
I'm trying to tell you just how
I'd like to hear the words roll out of your mouth finally
Say that it's always been me

That's made you feel a way you've never felt before
And I'm all you need and that you never want more
Then you'd say all of the right things without a clue
But you'd save the best for last
Like I'm the one for you

You should know that you're just a temporary fix
This is not rooted with you it don't mean that much to me
You're just a filler in the space that happened to be free
How dare you think you'd get away with trying to play me

Why is it everytime I think I've tried my hardest
It turns out it ain't enough cause you're still not mentioning love
What am I supposed to do to make you want me properly?
I'm taking these chances and getting away
And though I'm trying my hardest you back to her
And I think that I know things may never change
I'm still hoping one day I might hear you say

I make you feel a way you've never felt before
And I'm all you need and that you never want more
Then you'd say all of the right things without a clue
But you'd save the best for last
Like I'm the one for you

You should know that you're just a temporary fix
This is not rooted with you it don't mean that much to me
You're just a filler in the space that happened to be free
How dare you think you'd get away with trying to play me

But, despite the truth that I know
I find it hard to let go and give up on you
Seems I love the things you do
Like the meaner you treat me the more eager I am
To persist with this heartbreak and running around
And I think that I know things may never change
I'm still hoping one day I might hear you say

I make you feel a way you've never felt before
And I'm all you need and that you never want more
And we'll say all of the right things without a clue
And you'll be the one for me and me the one for you

tired-adele. :)

Hold my hand while you cut me down
it had only just begun but now its over now
and your in the heat of moments with your heart playing up cold
im between the middle watching hastiness unfold
in my eyes your were smiling in the spotlight dancing with the night
the night
fell off your mind

im tired of trying
your teasing aint enough
fed up of biding your time
when i dont get nothing back
and for and for and for
when i dont get nothing back
boy im tired


where'd you go when you stay behind
i looked up and inside down and outside only to find
a double taking punching hard and laughing at my smile
i get closer you obviously prefer her

im tired of trying
your teasing aint enough
fed up of biding your time
when i dont get nothing back
and for and for and for
when i dont get nothing back
boy im tired of trying
your teasing aint enough
fed up of biding your time
when i dont get nothing back
and for and for and for
when i dont get nothing back
boy im tired



(i should have known)

never mind said your open arms
i couldnt help believe the trick me back into them

im tired of trying
your teasing aint enough
fed up of biding your time
when i dont get nothing back
and for and for and for
when i dont get nothing back
boy im tired of trying
your teasing aint enough
fed up of biding your time
when i dont get nothing back
and for and for and for
when i dont get nothing back
boy im tired

Full Moon.

June 10,2009

Lately THEMOON.outside has been looking ever soo stunning. Each night it was absolutely beautiful. Oh my! You had to be out to see it. Because of THEMOON out the whole skyline was just out of there beautful. Man! Here are some pictures I took on my phone.

I Feel like i should be taking this as a soon. New moon..new chapter in my life. I'm ready to read. I'm done with that chapter.There are no regrets. Just lesson learned. Made some mistake but you learn as you go right. That comes with being human. People are put in your life for a sole reason and they are bound to be taken out of your life as well. Some stay longer than others but at the end the only thing thats promised in this life is death.

[PEACE.ms]

Where you from?!

I was reading this thing on topix.com talking about if Somalians are Black or not. It had said that Somalians are 85% African American and 15% Eurasian. That's pretty logical knowing that the country has been colonized by Italy and there's an huge influence from the Arabs. It's near the Arabian coast.

All throughout my schooling years in the united states people always questioned my race and where I was from. Whenever I said I was from Africa they would not believe and that bothers me because people don't really know what type of people are in Africa and then they live up to those silly sterotypes made by white america. &Ask me those dumb Questions Like Do yall have televisions?... ... But you know what it's not their fault. They are so use to seeing Africa on the discovery channel. So used to seeing the rural parts aka the jungle. So used to seeing the animals. Lately people are stepping outside the box and are willing to learn and/or know more about Africa. which puts a :) on my face.

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Sooo three types of East Africans who look alike...

Eritians, Ethiopians, Last but not least Somalians.

These 3 countries are all right next to each other.
I get soo bothereed when people mistake me for Ethiopian.I dont know why I dont think I look or resemble one but Even Ethiopians question if I am.

It shouldnt bother me because we all our beautiful people from the motherland. :)

So Far from Home.

Conversations brought back those soothing memories.
You know the ones we use to of us growing up.
Playing in the rain.
going abyos store.
Living around the corner from ayayo and abti.
then those awful memories like
Mohamed being really sick.
Remembering having hawariyer taking me to her house becuase he was so sick.
I just knew it was that day.
So young but so understanding.
Some days I wish he was still here.
I know if he was he would have been my bestfriend for sure.
I miss the thought of him.
As they speak about him.
I know he would have been a great guy.
...
Sometimes I wonder If my parents ever think about him.
Especially my mother .
I bet they do just like I have my days.
...Anything that happens for a reason.
All I know is his resting in peace.

Oh No!.

Plain Jane

Curly Sue

After having my hair curly for three months and having it straighten for two weeks made me realized a few things about myself. It's weird because I like my hair both ways but sometimes i love my natural hair more just because when I'm out I dont have to worry about "is it freezy" .."How does it look" but when it's curly I just have this wild thing going on But whenever i have my hair straight i feel like it makes me look older and prettier. Idk why that's just the brainwashed me yapping.=\.
I've also noticed that people who are more into their afrocentric side like my hair curly and then there are some who love it straight. It really gets to me when guys compliment when I have my hair straight... when they say things like oh "Ilike your hair"... I get offended because I had to take time to have my hair like that. UGH!! There were two incidents that happened that I always think of when someone compliments me for having my hair straight. The one that really gets to me is my freshmen year in college there was this mutual guy friend the group had and one day while i was walking to class he was like whats wrong with your hair. Let me tell u my hair was just like it is on the picture above.& I was like wtf are you talkin about. He was like its all over the place. Okkay, I wore my hair like that everyday. Then the next week he was like .."Oh i like your hair its looks nice. "..I was like WoW!... oh kay... He just annoys the hell outta me. I cant stand people like that. It just makes me feel different about that. Like they have been brainwashed. Ofcourse they have because they are soo used to seeing african american females with their hair straight all the time. & people usually mock what they don know or arent use to. eHH iT'S whatever.

Guess whose Back

munzy munzy munzy!
What's on your mind? ...

In order to live you gota live with your regrets.
I see people want you to be miserable.
I've noticed some people would love to see you frown then s smile.
If they aren't happy No one else is allowed happiness.
It's their world & We just squirrels tryna get a nut.
HA!
I realized my happiness comes first.
Is that selfish. No I dont think so.
B/c in reality who doesnt look out for themselves first.
If you dont You crazyy!
Everyone gets a little greedy sometimes and
it's okay to be greedy with self.
b/C Whose going to LOVE you if you
whose going to lookout for You
.YOU
.YOU
.YOU
;)