Today was a greaat day =].
yes im happy. i spent a lil bit but it's cool.
I didnt go overboard like "booger".
I plan on going to XXi though.. buy a few here & there.
Oh! Snap..I really want a peacoat. Idc if summer is near. I need a decent jacket.
.... why am I frustrating myself. Well it doesnt bother me like it use to. I think because my guard is up. You can't really depend on them anymore. So i guess i'll have my fun just like he is. Nothing wrong with a little friendlyness especially when it's decent. Nothing to trip over.
......
I'm looking forward to tomorrow. I hang with Chrysanthemum inshallah.
& that's all for a Wednesday.=].
Well TOOODles.
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
Monday, January 12, 2009
FATSO!!
So it's what now 1:38 am
I am not sleepy!
Just had a bucket full of ice cream.
Yes , I gets down like that.
it was goood too.
Mayne , strawberry & vanilla be on point!!
... Im pretty excited to go back to school and see my compadres.
and ofcourse that one dude.... just a tad bit.
I just want make him feel "gay".
..Sooo he didn't call me tonight ..should I be tripping?? Okay i am a tad bit.
this unlike him though seriously. He calls me everynight.
Idk WTF is up.. but whatever.
I am looking forward to today... hopefully get my CD from Anna Lee. hang out with dude. ..run some errands.. pick up my SHOES. yay thanx bre bre =]!!
... inshalla <3
I am not sleepy!
Just had a bucket full of ice cream.
Yes , I gets down like that.
it was goood too.
Mayne , strawberry & vanilla be on point!!
... Im pretty excited to go back to school and see my compadres.
and ofcourse that one dude.... just a tad bit.
I just want make him feel "gay".
..Sooo he didn't call me tonight ..should I be tripping?? Okay i am a tad bit.
this unlike him though seriously. He calls me everynight.
Idk WTF is up.. but whatever.
I am looking forward to today... hopefully get my CD from Anna Lee. hang out with dude. ..run some errands.. pick up my SHOES. yay thanx bre bre =]!!
... inshalla <3
theres no " you & I"
All buildings need a strong foundation.
after foundation
then comes the walls before we put up the roof.
but
We're standing in a house with no floor.
We never had a strong relationship because we were walking around with no floor.
clinging to slippery walls, always waiting to see who will be the first to fall.
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"When a man has Tunnel vision, he cant see things that are happening in his periphery."
Soo he focuses on others faults.
Always focused on me failing.
Before I even slip
You were there to push me down
Push me harder than I ever fell.
but i quickly moved to right
& you fell hard
flat on your face.
because you were to busy
being pessimistic.
Doesnt get you nowhere
but only turns your world upside down.
GOOODBYE!!!
after foundation
then comes the walls before we put up the roof.
but
We're standing in a house with no floor.
We never had a strong relationship because we were walking around with no floor.
clinging to slippery walls, always waiting to see who will be the first to fall.
-------------------------------------------------------------
"When a man has Tunnel vision, he cant see things that are happening in his periphery."
Soo he focuses on others faults.
Always focused on me failing.
Before I even slip
You were there to push me down
Push me harder than I ever fell.
but i quickly moved to right
& you fell hard
flat on your face.
because you were to busy
being pessimistic.
Doesnt get you nowhere
but only turns your world upside down.
GOOODBYE!!!
playing the devils game.
Why
do we play such a harsh game?
when we know its just going to hurt one another.
Because there's that CURIOUSITY in us.
That want inside the other we love to explore.
Or just that minimal enjoyment.
Is it really worth it?
Sometimes it might be..
But the pain caused Is never worth it.
Many people want their cake & eat it too.
What if the games were switched up.
---
Cheating :is an act of lying, deception, trickery,fraud, imposture, or imposition. Cheating characteristically is employed to create an unfair advantage, usually in one's own interest, and often at the expense of others
---
We both did our fair of "cheating"
you lied THEN I lied
You knew that day i wanted to hang with you. but you insisted on "later".
Later wasnt good enough for me.
Just like "I dont feel like it wasnt good enough for you".
<>
I didnt like it at all.
So I joined to play the game.
I was just curious ofcourse.
I was thinking "getting more for less".
It was done to me , why can't I do it.
Now I am left with a couple of battlescars.
Why?
it's so unfair.
Why can't we call it truce.
Accept it we both played the game.
One better than the other.
You know even though it wasnt confirmed.
But you know it.
Just like I did.
I know your scarred but so am i.
So can we really judge each other on our mistakes.
an intentional mistake.
I dont think so.
I can never.
Flavor of the weak always leaves you disatisfied.
do we play such a harsh game?
when we know its just going to hurt one another.
Because there's that CURIOUSITY in us.
That want inside the other we love to explore.
Or just that minimal enjoyment.
Is it really worth it?
Sometimes it might be..
But the pain caused Is never worth it.
Many people want their cake & eat it too.
What if the games were switched up.
---
Cheating :is an act of lying, deception, trickery,fraud, imposture, or imposition. Cheating characteristically is employed to create an unfair advantage, usually in one's own interest, and often at the expense of others
---
We both did our fair of "cheating"
you lied THEN I lied
You knew that day i wanted to hang with you. but you insisted on "later".
Later wasnt good enough for me.
Just like "I dont feel like it wasnt good enough for you".
<>
I didnt like it at all.
So I joined to play the game.
I was just curious ofcourse.
I was thinking "getting more for less".
It was done to me , why can't I do it.
Now I am left with a couple of battlescars.
Why?
it's so unfair.
Why can't we call it truce.
Accept it we both played the game.
One better than the other.
You know even though it wasnt confirmed.
But you know it.
Just like I did.
I know your scarred but so am i.
So can we really judge each other on our mistakes.
an intentional mistake.
I dont think so.
I can never.
Flavor of the weak always leaves you disatisfied.
July whatsoever.
Sometimes i feel like im being taken for granted
Yea there are days where its great and everything but theres days
where i just feel horrible.
I've literally lost myself in this.
Thinking things will change.
But it takes two for it to change.
it's gettin bettter but things still eat me up
like things that have happened in the past
that left bruises
it will randomly pop up in my mind even though the time will be good or anything.
For instance, today. everything was perfect till this particular incident popped up
in my head
i didt really want to say anything becuz of course i dont wana trip over the past
it sucks though cuz it really eats me up.
like he gets mad at me for things other ppl say but i cant help it
Sometimes i feel soo stupid but i cant help myself
& sometimes love makes you BLIND!!
i just wish i was appreciated you know like i use to be
yea he says its my fault for changing him but seriously it was just hard for me
i didnt wana get in too deep before him & get hurt
but looky here now.
Yeah things changed since july to better but its little by little
im grateful for our better days.
but as a good friend tells me "that all guys are fatal
just some worse than others".
Yea there are days where its great and everything but theres days
where i just feel horrible.
I've literally lost myself in this.
Thinking things will change.
But it takes two for it to change.
it's gettin bettter but things still eat me up
like things that have happened in the past
that left bruises
it will randomly pop up in my mind even though the time will be good or anything.
For instance, today. everything was perfect till this particular incident popped up
in my head
i didt really want to say anything becuz of course i dont wana trip over the past
it sucks though cuz it really eats me up.
like he gets mad at me for things other ppl say but i cant help it
Sometimes i feel soo stupid but i cant help myself
& sometimes love makes you BLIND!!
i just wish i was appreciated you know like i use to be
yea he says its my fault for changing him but seriously it was just hard for me
i didnt wana get in too deep before him & get hurt
but looky here now.
Yeah things changed since july to better but its little by little
im grateful for our better days.
but as a good friend tells me "that all guys are fatal
just some worse than others".
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